The year now comes to a close. I could not help but revel at the fast pace of the days as it went by. It feels like I have just started the new year when we are now flipping our calendars away to have a fresh start. Who wouldn't want that? I guess every human being's goal as January steps in is to have something new in their lives; the new in them that shuns away the past that has been haunting them for the past year. We all want a clean beginning but it seems vague for us to do so.
New year resolutions never work for me. They are merely words of affirmation to yourself that you can do better. There's no doubt about that though, only that they couldn't last you through the year. Why? Because we are human and we couldn't change drastically in a span of time. Who we are will always be the imprint of our identity. So rather on wallowing on the failures of the new year resolutions, why not set goals instead. Goals motivate oneself to achieve them. It gives a sense of self-fulfillment once achieved.
I couldn't really say that resolutions could be the answer to change. The past is always there to stay with us. But instead of turning the other cheek, we could learn from our mistakes. This year wasn't my best. It was full of challenges, pain and sorrow. But then I realized, not having my best year was also awesome. I got to know who my true friends are, the real ones who stick with you despite your wrong decisions and those who have the courage to tell you frankly on the wrong you've did.
Despite not being my best, I look forward to the next year to come. There will be more battles, which I have to choose wisely. It will come to me like a roar of the sea and at some point in time, I will be helpless. But we all know this will all be heading. When we find ourselves alone, the only person we could crawl back into is the Divine Being who has never left our side.
At first when 2015 was about to go, I felt a pang of fear in me. I have become so comfortable with the year that was, now I don't want to let it slip away. Yet life is what we make it and the tables have to turn one way or another. Now, I'm welcoming 2016 with a bang even it pains me to be away with my family for the celebration. I know deep down that there is a reason for everything, even for separation.
I'm now at a land that is not my own but I took up to the challenge of being here for the holidays because of the work I have come to love. Someday all the sacrifices will pay off. It could be on the next year or the following, I don't know. All I know is that I am so ready to bid this year so long, along with all the failures and wrong turns in it. As I face the year of the fire monkey, my heart is set on goals that will allow me to be a better person, a better writer, a better journalist, and a better daughter. I'm not expecting anything in return, but I'm trying to move on from the past.
We may not be on the same line on some thoughts but this I know for sure - the new year will be full of surprises like how Steve Harvey quickly spun the turn the events during the Miss Universe 2015 pageant and so much more. I would say, brace yourself.