But as Rio admitted to Allure, the presence of an illness can take its toll on any marriage, and especially so on the spouses of cancer patients. "I cannot see the husband or wife of cancer patients as not suffering even as much because the companionship, the time together, the expectations of what a regular relationship is all about are all tested. And then the devil works his way through each of us, to divide us, to part us."
Still, Rio mused, "Our lives are more focused now on what Gods purpose is for us. Charlie always tells me, You know thats why youre alive God has a purpose for you. But people may fail to see that God also has a purpose for each of us. Mine just seems to be more in the public eye because Charlie is a politician and because of his family life. God has really designed that each of us has a purpose. The question is, when God calls you to a mission, it is bigger than yourself and sometimes it will outlive you. But God is asking each of us one question are you available?"
This time, its Charlies turn to share how he made himself available to Gods purpose for him and his wife, revealing how he and Rio have used the power of love to triumph over the Big C.
"Mababaw ang pleasures namin tawa lang nang tawa, watching movies, kain nang kain. And then from there, the other things came in. As you talk, you get to know the other person.
Why me, why us?
"When I first learned that Rio had cancer, I asked myself, Why us? Why me? We had been married for four years and we had two kids. Two or three weeks went by with me asking those questions. I did break down because her sisters cry easily so I cried with them. (At least) I had somebody to cry with. After two or three weeks Rio said we should seek relief or help from the Lord so I said, Sige, Ill talk to the husband of your friend whos a pastor in the US.
"Im not saying Im religious but it (having faith in God) has really helped me in a lot of ways. Although I still have a lot of things to work on with my personality, it (coping with cancer) brings you back to the center; if you (had gone) left or right, it brings you back to the center. Left is an expression for nadidiskaril ka or you dont go where life is supposed to lead you. Life is like that it has a lot of distractions, and some people have more distractions than others. We as human beings are prone to that. It pulls you back to the center everytime you stray. I dont put a lot of stock on people who always talk about morality because no one I know has that all the time. Why? Because were human. And as long as we pull ourselves back God naman knows whats in our heart it will stay there.
"Aside from that she had treatment and all of that discomfort. Figuratively you have that feeling but I dont think you would want to go through the pain of cancer patients. You can see other patients in the clinic and its something that is not easy. But she copes with it I guess because of the Lord. Kung kaya ni Rio, kaya ko rin, kasi she was going through a lot more.
What to tell the kids?
"The kids know their mom is sick. We told them that its a sickness that can come and go. Yes, they also know it can be fatal; theyve known this since our daughter was three Rio told them. Siyempre at that age, if it does happen, the effect of reality is a lot stronger. So they are at a stage I think where theyll be getting stronger because theyre past the toddler stage. Claudia is eight and Jaime, six. Ali (Rios son by Hajji AlejandroEditor) has known this since he was 16. Hes 21.
"Were here to do something not only good things but maybe to help people. Not everybodys here to help people. Each one has his own purpose. So we just have to make the best of it. We shouldnt say Wow kawawa naman kami. Maybe that happened to us but were blessed naman in other ways. Parang its hard to say na sana maiba.
"Yes, we do talk about death. In fact in her last treatment, in and out siya sa coma, I was there because she had made a form with instructions. But I wasnt there when she made it; she and her friend Marisette Galang whos also undergoing chemotherapy made the form when I wasnt there. It had instructions on what to do in case she dies, things like do not resuscitate, where to bring (her remains) it was detailed, about five or six pages long. And what was nice about it is that it was matter-of-fact, not something djahe.
"Anyway, I wanted to confirm with her kung tama ba itong nilagay mo just to double check. Pero in and out siya sa coma! I wanted to ask her pag gising siya kung tama ba ito? Pero hindi ko nagawa for 10 days.
"When something like that happens, even if you say, Sige I will take the responsibility, I will do what I think is right, youre still not sure if it is her actual wishes thats there. Thats why I wanted to get that out of the way.
"But then, whether you do it (the temptation) or not, just thinking about it is parang ganoon na rin. As I said, your faith should bring you back. Because if not, you can continue on that track and end up God knows where and never come back and lose everything that you left behind.
"If Rio should leave me now, I will tell her, No regrets. I hope to see you soon and I will try to do my best to raise our children well."
(E-mail the author at annmondo@yahoo.com)